There's moments, so often,
of an unbearable sadness,
So gloomy and so sudden.
One that captures me
amidst my peaceful state,
and snatches it away violently.
When I'm yet unable to fathom
the reasons, the consequences,
Of my mood that swings constantly.
A shift, never in the bearable middle,
Always to the extreme anxiety.

There's moments, so often,
of an unbearable sadness,
That can't be translated to words.
Only tears, with which,
the heart flows what hurts.
And my mama, always worried,
seeking the reason of my weeps,
Broken she felt, to witness
her daughter's tears.
There's always a reason, she says,
Expose to me what's within.
Hug me, tell me how you feel.
Mama, I feel miserable,
And the reason remains unknown.
Pardon, my swollen reddish eyes,
I used to hide them once.
But now, I show them to you
for you're my only home.
Don't worry mother,
You're never useless,
Your presence, your comfort,
A place for me to breathe.
And pardon me mother,
to be broken like this.
Would you live longer to see me shine?
If I would shine, one day, like you said,
I want to shine with you.
If I would find my peace, one day,
I want it to be with you.

There's moments, so often,
of an unbearable sadness,
So painful, worthy of my giving up.
But Patient, I'll be,
Though sometimes impatient.
Hopeful, I'll be,
Though sometimes hopeless.
Aren't better days yet to come?

© Caillou