Being sad is now nice,
It's now the norm.
People ask me how I am and I say good because when I say bad,
I'm asking for attention.
I lie to everyone now,
'How are you' -LIE' 
What you been up to' - (hating myself) NO- LIE
Yesterday I was asked where I see myself in 5 years,
I smiled and thought to myself:
Will I even be here in 5 years?
Wouldn't I have killed myself by then?
After realizing I wouldn't be here in 5 years I smiled once more and said:
Where I've wanted to be for a long time
© me