Disappointed
Disappointment
Everyone laughs at me
Or so I feel
I can't think right
My mind is left
I'm sorry
I feel like I need to be
Tonight I want to break down
More than most bad nights
What am I born to do?
Because I can't figure it out
So many beside me
But I'm alone
I've always hated myself
And tonight I feel like all do
I'm weak
I'm in tears
Choking on my tongue
I'm falling apart
Screaming at the air
Running away from nothing
But I'm not finding anything
I'm alone
I'm sorry
It's all I can say
All I can find to say
What am I?
Who am I?
Because I don't think I'll know
Really ever
I can't wake up
Not from this nightmare
I want to desperately
But I'm not okay
I'm sorry
I don't know what to do
Who to be
I'm beating myself up
Fighting myself
Nobody wants to deal with me
Not my emotions
Not my issues
Physical or mental
I'm sorry
Because I can't make up my mind
Because I don't know what I'm doing
Because I need to love myself
But how?
When I'm breaking myself down?
When I'm shaking?
How?
When I'm falling apart?
Because I'm trying so, so hard
And I don't know where to even begin
I'm sorry
Because I'm messed up
I'm sorry
Because I can't get anything right
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm so sorry