As I feel myself falling away,
The more I feel disconnected,
My life not being in an array.
They tell me it's nothing,
But when I feel everything,
how can it be something naught and nothing?
I feel dissociated from reality,
I'm losing the grip on the actuality.
I don't even know what's dragging me away,
But I do know that it's ripping my life apart,
Taking everything away.
They tell me to smile,
But how can I, when something gripping me is actually very vile.
I've been dealing with this for awhile,
"you're just wasting your time,
crying more than a normal person,
it's actually been awhile."
I ask for help and I get naught,
My life's already strangled in a messy knot,
They say worry not,
But they can't help me the way I need help,
They say the key is to not think about it,
But it's easy when they say it,
For I'm being eaten by the beast,
Which resides inside me.
I feel trapped,
Trapped in the truest sense.
While the world is silent and pleasant outside me,
My inner world commences,
Taking apart every part of me.
They don't feel what I feel,
They ask for it,
But I don't know what to say about it.
I just want help,
Where I can speak to my heart's content,
Without being hesitant.
I just wanna talk,
Without getting in return any mock.
Drowning is a correct word for this,
And being not able to swim,
Is my problem for it.


© K