When I close my eyes I see the sunny meadow...
I can feel the tall grass as the blades tickle my fingers...
The Sun is warm on my face and hands as the wind blow softly through my hair...
With the breeze comes a rancid dew, but memorable nonetheless...
I see the faces of our children...
Oh, how happy Maggie was when you broke down and got her piano lessons... and how brave Brandon was when he first learned how to swim...
The bills have piled up but the store keeps us afloat...
You drive an old rusted Chevy but you love that truck and it starts everytime...
We had dog for many years...
A miniature Applehead Chihuahua named Chichi but she died In my Mothers arms when we moved to Phoenix...the heat was just too much for that poor little thing...
I don't think you ever got over that...
And your mother still hates me for it...
Your father has long-sense forgave me and approved...
But in his own way...
And your friends envy you so...
They are amazed we fit together like we do... and they are jealous of a passion that still burns like the forest in Autumn...
But I know it can also be hard at times...
Its been rocky on occasion but you have stuck with me and for that I thank you...
As I lean-in to steal a kiss from you my love... you start to disappear... I tighten my eyes and try to hold on .. I whisper in the wind and wish for you to stay...but your spirit is fleating fast...
My heart is pounding...
Getting hard to breath...
Beginning to sweat and feel naucious...
My worst fears are being realized and I slowly open my eyes to my reality...
You are no longer there...
I am alone once more..
The faces of my fictional children fade from memory...
My cell phone buzzes from the kitchen counter...
Another reminder from my co-worker Allison...
"Those papers I gave you better be done by Saturday night because I need to re-do it all in my handwriting... so my father-your boss, thinks I did the work...remember!! and it better be done good you got me!! the Board is meeting again soon and they're gonna give me Partner or your gonna Die trying... you got me!!"...
I would complete the work on time like she asked...and I would never tell her how I really feel... She could never know... She is too blinded by the Mainstream Media Brainwashing of today's society... her father would think this pursuit a ruse and not think me genuine and others would not understand...
not understand that I see her differently than everyone else...
I see the person she truly is...
Behind the lies and the manipulations... beyond the stories and fake BS that hinder so many of us in our World today...
All the BS that keep people from being who they truly want to be...
Who they were truly meant to be..
Who they truly deserve to be...
And that's someone that Loves and IS Loved...
But Until then...
I Will settle for...
Unrequited Love...

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