I wish I had gone 25 years back and tell my fetus not to develop and get born, but 15 year old me is not bad let me work on him before he is gone.
They say life begins at 40 but I say life begins when you cry your first cry, it is that cry that shows you that the world is not fair and governed by a lie.
15 years on earth but you have seen the horror of this world...... I wish I was there for you sooner to give you this word....
"lacking a father figure is what is making me miss these steps",
is the excuse you are giving yourself as you pile up mistakes in heaps......... heaps that will bury you alive by locking you up in the mantion of fear.
pain and misery is what you will live by but a beautiful smile is what you will wear................it will be a self-defense tool knowing that you are all alone and no one is there.
looking at your actions no one would love nor accept you.....opposing acceptance feel like a perfect way for you.

look at me

looking back at you all I see I grace for now I am winning this race.
knowing that he loves me with all these mistakes is what gives peace.
he is my definition of acceptance
anxiety,fear and condemnation are ever attacking me but he remains my defense.
he is a father I never had.
looking 10 years back I wish I knew Christ at that age.....
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