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I Want You To Know
I was just laying here just like any other night as I'm stuck inside of my own mind that's racing through a million years random deep very deep thoughts, my mind never knows when to shut down, but tonight my own deep thoughts are not random nor is there a million different deep thoughts racing around in my head, except for...
one very lonely deep thought that for some reason I can't get this very lonely deep thought to stop racing through my head, so that's when I figured that this very lonely deep thought is trying to tell you something. I want you to know from the deepest lonely tore up heart, which is no one else's fault but my very own. What I want you to know first of all is this same lonely deep thought I have in my head all as well as every night, it's not just one of those thoughts either that are easy to put into words that's for sure, so with that being said please bear with me as I try to tell you this very lonely deep thought I have racing on my head all and every night. Every night I lay in bed with this very lonely deep thought racing through my head which is what I want to tell you as well as show you how deeply sorry as well as much in fact I deeply do appreciate everything and still are doing for me, love and care about me even as well as taught even shown me even in which you have even forgiven me for something that I feel terrible for even doing which yeah sure it should had never had happened, which is also the reason that I have been beating the holy fuck out of myself and probably always will for doing such a horrible thing to such a great intelligent loving understanding and caring guy such as yourself. I'm very proud to be married to you as well as very appreciative that you have it in your very loving heart to forgive me for all of my wrong doings yet to still find it in your heart to still want my hand in marriage for me to be known to all to see as well as to see and to know that I'm always and forever will be the love of your life as your loving wife.
I just it was so simple to show you just so that you would know that nothing ever again will ever happen to you because those vows that we had said face to face while looking deep into each other's eyes, I really meant every word, letter of those vows that we had said to one another on our wedding day December 6,2018 I meant from the deepest of my heart.
I just wished that it was so simple to make you that Happy, loving kind man that I had feel completely head over heels for, and that's what I wanted you to know.
I love you so much,
love your loving wife
Donna
original date written: September 12, 2019
one very lonely deep thought that for some reason I can't get this very lonely deep thought to stop racing through my head, so that's when I figured that this very lonely deep thought is trying to tell you something. I want you to know from the deepest lonely tore up heart, which is no one else's fault but my very own. What I want you to know first of all is this same lonely deep thought I have in my head all as well as every night, it's not just one of those thoughts either that are easy to put into words that's for sure, so with that being said please bear with me as I try to tell you this very lonely deep thought I have racing on my head all and every night. Every night I lay in bed with this very lonely deep thought racing through my head which is what I want to tell you as well as show you how deeply sorry as well as much in fact I deeply do appreciate everything and still are doing for me, love and care about me even as well as taught even shown me even in which you have even forgiven me for something that I feel terrible for even doing which yeah sure it should had never had happened, which is also the reason that I have been beating the holy fuck out of myself and probably always will for doing such a horrible thing to such a great intelligent loving understanding and caring guy such as yourself. I'm very proud to be married to you as well as very appreciative that you have it in your very loving heart to forgive me for all of my wrong doings yet to still find it in your heart to still want my hand in marriage for me to be known to all to see as well as to see and to know that I'm always and forever will be the love of your life as your loving wife.
I just it was so simple to show you just so that you would know that nothing ever again will ever happen to you because those vows that we had said face to face while looking deep into each other's eyes, I really meant every word, letter of those vows that we had said to one another on our wedding day December 6,2018 I meant from the deepest of my heart.
I just wished that it was so simple to make you that Happy, loving kind man that I had feel completely head over heels for, and that's what I wanted you to know.
I love you so much,
love your loving wife
Donna
original date written: September 12, 2019
