A year passed by ever so quickly,
Yet, I could still feel the warmth of your embrace.
So tight, I thought I died,
But then, I didn't.

Even on this day, I wish I had,
For in my mind, I wondered,
How am I supposed to live
Without you in my life?

I remember not returning your embrace,
Not because I didn't want to,
But because I didn't want
To deal with it, yet
In my mind, I still think it isn't real,
That you'd leave and go on with your life
Without me in it.

I sound so selfish, don't I?
How badly I wanted to say,
"Don't leave me; I still need you here."
I will always need you.
But I stood my ground,
I want you to be happy,
And happiness isn't with me,
So with a shaking voice, I said, "go."

And off you go,
To build a life on your own.
There goes the only constant thing in my life,
The one who walked beside me,
Held my hand and guided me,
The one who understood me,
The one who believed in me
When nobody else did.

My feelings were valid,
But so were yours.
No words were spoken,
But we understood each other
Along with the silence,
There's an acceptance.
Things may have changed between us,
But the one we had will never change.

Despite everything, I'm still glad
Things happened the way they did.
The road may have been rocky, but you still made it.
You've finally turned your purpose in life
Into something that makes you look forward to,
Even when things are rough,
Even when sometimes you feel
Things are too much.

I've finally learned to do things alone,
No one to have my back
And expect people to catch me when I fall.
I know you still will, but I can do it on my own.
But then, I realized I was right all along,
You will always be the constant thing in my life.
If that doesn't mean I love you,
Then I guess, I don't know what love means after all.

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