Spirit gon keep me protected
even when i don’t get it
when i’m mad at it
can’t stand the way the pieces are falling
but trusting there’s a power to be found in my suffering
hoping there are better days full of giddy side aching laughing
but the time keeps passing
these long seasons seem everlasting
like they’re targeting me, keeping me rationing
holding on to the good memories,
ask my friends
they say i should go into photography
and i guess it’s something that’d make the time pass for me
but i don’t want my hobbies to become my identity
afraid of expectations, and all that people may want from me
im tired of being used,
of people getting the best of me
because i treat every time differently
hoping to God it isn’t another test for me
I hold my favourite things so close to me
my hobbies are only seen by my family
because we in close proximity
i’m at a point now where i feel
everything needs protecting
some of my favourite songs are now unbearable,
shared them with people who didn’t hold those lyrics as sacredly
and who am i to blame anyone for not understanding
i’m autistic, maybe i need to be with someone like me
I thought i knew what i wanted,
until it became something it didn’t have to be
showing me exactly what i’d never want to see
teaching me it may not be what i need,
and this is Spirits way of protecting me
through trials and tribulations
we change, we go through phases
we learn more about ourselves
with another
and through these connections,
we teach each other
we may become lovers
or send eachother in opposite directions on their own special paths to discover
finding peace in the duality
is the best way to exist in your reality ✨

© Yazzythealien