Is this the truth?
I feel lost...
My chest hurts...
There are words in my mouth
Pictures in my head
The rumbling of my thoughts
The discomfort in my body
I can't breathe
Although I smile
I laugh
Although I cry
This itching in my chest
I can't peel it off
What is this?
Is it pain?
My shoulders are lagging
Just like a bridge with a crack
They don't care
They still walk on that old bridge
Am I a bridge?
Why do I feel like one?
I loved colours
I was colourful
Now, I see shades of grey
I look grey
What to do?
Feels like a hole
Still in that hole
They come to me
This! That!
I give them
Me! In a hole
No one sees that
They come again
Here! There!
Me! In that hole
No hears me
Wicked!
So Wicked!
I cry in despair
I comfort myself
I prayed silently
I hoped daily
I see a bit of light
It becomes my joy
I hold on to it
And fight through
The hole hug me right
It likes me I guess
But I need more
More than that space
I see a vast land ahead
With bright light
So beautiful
I longed for it
The hole hugs me tighter
I struggle
Why?
I asked...
Oh!
I remember!
Words in my mouth
Say them!
Thoughts in my head
Fix them
Can't move on
So much tying me down
I try...
I try harder...
But it's stuck
In my mouth
Do I wait?
Until they fade away?
This I ask
Yet no one answers
Am I alone?
Is this the truth?
© mahrylove
My chest hurts...
There are words in my mouth
Pictures in my head
The rumbling of my thoughts
The discomfort in my body
I can't breathe
Although I smile
I laugh
Although I cry
This itching in my chest
I can't peel it off
What is this?
Is it pain?
My shoulders are lagging
Just like a bridge with a crack
They don't care
They still walk on that old bridge
Am I a bridge?
Why do I feel like one?
I loved colours
I was colourful
Now, I see shades of grey
I look grey
What to do?
Feels like a hole
Still in that hole
They come to me
This! That!
I give them
Me! In a hole
No one sees that
They come again
Here! There!
Me! In that hole
No hears me
Wicked!
So Wicked!
I cry in despair
I comfort myself
I prayed silently
I hoped daily
I see a bit of light
It becomes my joy
I hold on to it
And fight through
The hole hug me right
It likes me I guess
But I need more
More than that space
I see a vast land ahead
With bright light
So beautiful
I longed for it
The hole hugs me tighter
I struggle
Why?
I asked...
Oh!
I remember!
Words in my mouth
Say them!
Thoughts in my head
Fix them
Can't move on
So much tying me down
I try...
I try harder...
But it's stuck
In my mouth
Do I wait?
Until they fade away?
This I ask
Yet no one answers
Am I alone?
Is this the truth?
© mahrylove