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alone with no love, noone to depend on
I thought I was doing my best...
trying to listen. tring to change...
I thought I made progress.. but maybe you never really cared ...I'm not your type I'm not skinny enough I'm not pretty enough I feel like what's wrong with me ...that's not really the case I'm a beautiful girl maybe not a woman yet someone will appreciate me maybe It won't be till I get to heaven though...
I've never ever had discipline. I think that's why I love you so much because we are really much alike .. both Hustle but not together and we both can be jerks I just don't want to be to each other you should really be appreciating one another
i don't really know how to let someone else be in contro...l I always done everything I wanted to impulsively I was running from myself trying to feel better ...running away day after day,
place to placee with no peace at all ever...
you finally gave me Peace by getting me off the phone... my whole entire life I've been expected to be a w**** and work for pimps intoxicated and taking advantage of...
I've been mentally ill as far back as I can remember....I hurt you and myself trying to feel better...mist of it I don't remember....
I don't want to remember I guess I have distorted thoughts I'm not healthy myself so how can I be in any type of relationship
that is we both have our share of Character defects, but why can't we just help each other get better at work together and be together but I guess that's not going to happen you don't deserve me and I don't deserve you...
it's raining outside and that's the type of weather how I feel today my dream shut down my heart has a hole, crumbles tossed out in the garbage can like it's always been because of my actions why can't I just get over it and be different I don't want to be the way I am I don't want to be me... sick of it all .....one day you will realize I really wasn't lying that I was trying but at that point it's too late I already accepted it I numbing myself because I can't stand to sit with myself
peace out World maybe the next life will be different
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