I am always scared,
Sometimes i froze in fear
When i think of that fateful day ,
A day that awaits me
Maybe today,tomorrow or maybe years to come.
The day that darkness will be my new, permanent home.

I have family and friends,
But on that day i will be left alone
Like a passing star in the galaxy,
I will see friends,family even lovers .
Then i will turn to look at my mother ,
And just like that i will be gone with no connection,no solace and no goodbye .
Drifting into the soil and vanish like seedlings on the ground .

I am afraid of my first night
In that lonely pit.
Filled with soil and darkness
Roses to accompany me,
But with time they will wither.
And i will be left all alone
I might keep calling your names,
I might keep pleading with you ,
Atleast not to send me in that pit.
I might cry,scream,lament but all in vain
My mouth will be muted
My words all in deafening silence
I wiĺl be gone.

At first i might be happy,
But just like being high on drugs,i will be away from the reality and i will see it in a new whole way.
Like the ocean waves that extends slowly and swiftly fades away,
Anxiety ,
Loneliness ,
Paranoia,
Depression ,
I wish someone could have saved me.

*©️Mum's Dota*
_Bleeding heart ❣️_
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