It’s this burning this suffocating jealousy and fear
that I feel when I’m not near you
it’s the jealousy that other people are taking up your time when I want all your hours
it’s the fear that without me you’ll find something better
someone better
and this tumultuous mix of feelings
is dangerous and terrifying
so instead
I get angry
I push you away to protect myself
because if that’s what I feel when your gone
what happens when you actually leave?

© AllisonKC07