I don't seem to know what's good for me,
Can't count how many have chased,
Can't explain how many I need,
At the same time I don't want to stay,
I might sooner or later descend into mara,

I don't know what feels true,
Heard lot's of lies and truth,
Currently, I've transcended into an unfamiliar realm,
Prepare for the worst, I might not be heard from again.

You don't know how hard I've tried so...