I knew that you were sick
Getting worse everyday
I just didn't realize
it would end this way
I beat myself up
almost everyday
Sorry for what I said
Months go by and
they find u dead
We didn't speak for so long
Don't think I was mad
I knew you struggled with addiction
I should have been there instead
I was drowning too
but that's no excuse
I wasn't there when needed me
I'm the worst friend
You got locked up
got sober for the best
But when you got out
It was too much I guess
I didn't get to say goodbye
I didn't get to see your face
Did you end your life
Or were your drugs laced
Was it an accident and
you didn't mean for it to end
I'll never have closure
I have to live with myself
Can't believe it's over
You will be missed
Never say goodbye just see you
later in another life
© Marieb