I remember sitting in the dark or at least I would create one during the day: I would draw in the curtains just to make sure it was all dark,

Suicidal thoughts filled my emotions I knew I wanted to die but wasn't brave enough to end my life and this act of cowardice ate me up on the inside,

Music became my friend I had ear phones in my ears night and day I listened to music on a full blast till my ears started to hurt...