Yes, I cry easily now.
I'm again that sensitive girl
whose mental strength has been completely destroyed,
and she is trying her level best to gather it again.
But that process is very difficult for her.

People often say that when a person experiences many hardships and incidents, they become strong.
But what happened in my case?
Why did I become weak?

I want my old version back—
she was tough,
an expert at hiding her feelings,
strong.
She also cried, but she didn't cry easily,
not like this stupid version.

This new, vulnerable version—
is she stupid, or is she trying to numb again?
Yeah, she's got separation anxiety as well now.
She is not herself anymore.
She just tries to act all mature
and keeps polishing her guards.
When you're the stronger one ,
being vulnerable or sensitive feels foreign.
And if old me can't be found,  I want my newer version to manage and blend these emotions well.
                                         
© Nainika