HI GUYS THIS IS A LITTLE DARKER THEN MY USUALL STUFF.

Sitting here in midst of a situation,
feeling once again like I'm crazy,
with an out of control conversation,
heartache & despair leaves me breathlessly..

only tears running down,
like a teenage girl with a broken heart,
wishing just to be without a meltdown,
or nightmares replaying like some kind of art..

stuck again squatting upon the ground,
hearing all the voices,
knowing that hope & hurt live inside always on the battleground,
accompanied by memories & images.

Getting me all messed up,
nowhere for me too escape too,
for it's my own heads setup,
I always have to go through..

I can never really forget,
or just stop it whenever I want,
or pick another mindset,
it's a huge disaster & of that I'm confident

as now it's back to the basics,
knowing it will be hard,
on this wild ride without becoming one of the alcoholics,
or loving the broken shard.

nobody really knowing what I have to go through,
or that I dont know what's wrong with me,
rather pretending when things are blue,
but as time catches up it's not working so beautifully.

causing me to run thin on patience,
feeling like I can't handle it any longer,
begging for some guidance,
and to make me stronger..

#bipolar #depression #toughtimes



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