When I close my eyes I see the sunny meadow...
I can feel the tall grass as it tickles my fingers...
The Sun is warm on my face and hands as the wind blows softly through my hair...
With the breeze comes a rancid dew, but memorable nonetheless... I see the faces of our children...
Oh, how happy Maggie was when you broke down and got her piano lessons... and how brave Brandon was when he first learned how to swim...
The bills have piled up but the store keeps us afloat...
You drive an old rusted Chevy but you love that truck and it starts everytime...
We had a dog for many years...
A miniature Applehead Chihuahua named Chichi but she died in my mothers arms when weaved to Phoenix... the heat was just too much for that poor little thing...
I don't think you ever got over that...
And your Mother still hates me for it...
Your father has long since forgave me and approved... But in his own way ...
And your friends envy you so...
They are amazed we fit together like we do...
And they are jealous of a passion that still burns like the forest in Autumn...
But I know it can be hard at times...
It's been rocky on occasion but you have stuck with me and for that I thank you...
As I lean-in to steal a kiss from you my love...
You start to disappear...
I tighten my eyes and try to hold on...
I whisper in the wind and wish for you to stay...
But your Spirit is fleating fast...
My heart is pounding...
Getting hard to breath..
Beginning to sweat and feel naucious...
My worst fears are being realized and I slowly open my eyes to my reality...
You are no longer there...
I am alone once more...
The faces of my fiction children fade from fantasy...
My cell phone buzzes from the kitchen counter...
Another reminder and missed call from my co-worker Allison...
"Those papers I gave you better be done my Saturday night
because I need to re-do it all in my handwriting... so that my Father, your boss, thinks I did the work remember!!?!! and it better be done you got me!!.. the Board is meeting again soon and they're gonna give me Partner or you're gonna DIE trying...you got me!!...
I would complete the work on time like she asked... and I would NEVER tell her how I really feel... She could NEVER know...
She is too blinded by the Mainstream Media Brainwashing of today's society...for in-this-state-of-being...She would never fully appreciate my Love...
Her Father would think this pursuit a ruse and not think me genuine and others would simply not understand...
Not understand that I see her differently than everyone else...
I see the person she truly is...
Behind the lies and manipulations...
I Read between the texts...
I See beyond the posts... beyond the stories... beyond the likes, shares, and follows...
I see past all the fake BS that hinder so many of us in our society today...
All the BS that keeps people from being who they truly want to be...
Who they were truly meant to be...
Who they truly deserve to be...
And that's someone who loves genuine and recieves love selfless...
Someone that Loves and IS Loved...
But until then...
I guess will settle for ...
the Unrequited Love...
#TheUnrequitedLove
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