Fixing my mind....
Deterred out of my life....
Like this anxiety spoke more than once..
More than tonight to the lights that..
That flashed all night....
All day....
Writing poetry as if Im not okay....
Missing parts of me that felt...
Felt ordained....
I fucking hate feeling not okay....
Not okay....
Not okay....
I'm drowning in a pool of tears...
Beating....
Feels like Im not even here....
Passing the clock and the time...
Where I don't even know why...
Why...
What...
Who....
I lost who I was...
My fucking mind screaming....
Help....
Help...
The therapist on the line...
Telling me....
We'll call you soon....
When....
Til my heart doesn't beat anymore?...
When....
Til my mind feels out of order....
I just want to fucking be okay....
Are you...