I express myself in a manner that puts you before a rank

I know it makes me seem
ungrateful

How hard it is to find the words that convey my love

They don't do enough

So you feel

An don't question whether they're real

You might anyways

Save it for a rainy day

Arguing with me a week before my birthday

As predictable as clock work

If they cared enough to know who their action's actually hurt

You wouldn't have gotten me anything anyway

You won't tell them how I helped you celebrate your's

From the kindness of my heart, blood spilled never in hopes of an award

To short to tell tall tales, you didn't merely spin them you abused them till they deformed

I remembered your birthday more than you cared to remember mine

You claimed me countless times, just to cheat on me while I was trying

An they wouldn't know that, you deceive them all the time

Constantly lying

To receive energy that couldn't rival what I was endlessly supplying

You see, that's all I could ever be to her selfish ass

Supposed to respect the neglect she showed while evading her own past

Claims don't stick, where the recognition lapse

How long the next dude last?

Dealing with your disrespectful ass

"My boyfriend had to help with our child"

You don't recognize how much you fucked up my relationship with them an that's worse than wild

Left me with a bad taste

How the hell I find anyone to love, if they're only concerned with the pace at which they replace?

How long I ignored an lied to myself about the signs right in front of my face

You made sure I couldn't be apart of my children's life any other way

Unless I bowed down to an tried to obey?

A blind man could see past the games you play

Why the fuck you want me, after everything you managed to throw away?

Every time it's like you slowly understand the state of our relationships decay

Now I need to go away

Now I only wanna argue

They stopped rallying behind you, as they saw who you were

How no one mattered enough for you address why you were insecure

Wanting answers from people you constantly lie to

If I found a dead prostitute in a dumpster, that'd be an upgrade a relationship with the potential to improve

If you cared about anything I had to lose

I wouldn't have told the wrong woman just how much I used to love you

That's the ugly truth

You wear anyone down that much, they'll only be able to wonder aloud

"What's the use?"

I've been going nowhere waiting for a introspective point of view

Too much to ask of you

You'll become irate, I just had to do everything you'd carelessly do?

When they follow you to work everyday, just to cheat on you?

That pain hurt me, an how I dealt with it wasn't healthy

I diminished the reflection I was supposed to uphold

Someone's grandma pointed her finger at me

No excuse, just a promise I won't ever move that carelessly

I got two girls that look up to me

I cannot return the favor to those that treat me ugly

I might die before I find that love that's constantly eluded me

Least I won't let you determine who I'm supposed to be

During this time alone I gotta learn to value that victory

No matter how lonely it'll require me to be

I might just have a chance to return the favor for all the love you thought you wasted on me

Aside from the weightless claims made, your recognition was when she began the wars she'd mentally wage

You ever have your character questioned because you told your girlfriend what another woman tried to say?

No dear, I wouldn't have checked my Instagram on her phone had I knew she'd take it upon herself to respond to you that way

I know I wouldn't an I imagine it don't mean all that much

How women tend to operate really does suck

Another woman claims you then they express their love

While another girl accuses me because of what she does

In her mind, I curated every one of her fuck ups

Cause who was I to expect her to grow up?

All I did for nothing, makes me wanna throw up

I hurt more than I should

Cause I can't turn on people even when all they do, is show me how little they care whether or not I'm doing good

All my father taught me was when you didn't have enough food, you eat less so you know they're full

They only thing he taught me that seemed beneficial

The bonds you have with your children are sacred an very special

How I'm willing to hurt to secure their future

How we're just supposed to wait till they mean more than being insecure?

How the fuck they believe you're innately more mature?

You joke at my expense, why you get a paternity test?

You wanted to make sure you knew what child you'd neglect?

I know you're a bitch, dude

That's why I never acknowledged your empty threats

You deserve the ugly bitch that cheats when you make her upset

I'd happily consider getting full custody, that girl can follow in her mom's footsteps an leave

That's speaking on being raised by women no one would ever need

"I chose to leave!"

So you have a reason to speak about the woman that raised me?

You're just a stupid kind of crazy

I'm not a bitch made king

Entitled to everything for doing nothing

I don't want their mother

I want my children

She can hug the white dude that called me that derogatory word

Fuck any an every one you bitches making sure our oppressors get served

Those lame pieces of shit can determine your worth

I can't wait till I get split custody

Don't worry the going gets worse

Though I don't settle scores with miserable whores

What's the matter?

They won't hurt as I have to

If that goes over your head?

Remember the questions I never asked you

















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